Thursday, September 14, 2006
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
What is love?
- "Love is like the sunshine; no matter how tightly you shut down your heart, the sunlight will find a way to shine into it. Love’s process is unstoppable." Nurmuhemmet Yasin
- "Love is a profound feeling of tender affection for or intense attraction to another. It is considered a deep, ineffable feeling shared in passionate or intimate interpersonal relationships." Wikipedia
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Aku rasa nak termuntah
Pernah tak korang kusut sangat, sampai rasa nak termuntah? Ni bukan termuntah macam kena keracunan makanan tu; ni lebih kepada rasa nak muntah sebelum masuk dewan periksa masa SPM, atau sebelum nak cakap kat orang yang kita minat gila yang kita minat gila kat dia, atau sementara nak tunggu keputusan ujian HIV punya rasa nak muntah.
Aku tak tahu sangat kenapa aku rasa macam tu sekarang. Yang aku tau, aku dah ambik SPM lebih sepuluh tahun lepas (ops...); aku belum nak cakap kat orang yang aku minat yang aku minat gila kat dia, atau ambik ujian HIV.
Sedang dilanda tekanan kah aku? Mungkin.
Sedang menahan perasaan kah aku? Mungkin juga.
Atau mungkin juga aku dah kenyang sangat makan nasik lemak kat kopitiam tadi.
Aku tak tahu sangat kenapa aku rasa macam tu sekarang. Yang aku tau, aku dah ambik SPM lebih sepuluh tahun lepas (ops...); aku belum nak cakap kat orang yang aku minat yang aku minat gila kat dia, atau ambik ujian HIV.
Sedang dilanda tekanan kah aku? Mungkin.
Sedang menahan perasaan kah aku? Mungkin juga.
Atau mungkin juga aku dah kenyang sangat makan nasik lemak kat kopitiam tadi.
Perit
It's hard to swallow things that are close to your heart, your soul and your body. Yesterday and today has been quite hard on me, I think. Nobody I can actually blame, though. Except stupid, heartless people, and that includes myself.
I'd been hit left, right and center. Yesterday was the start of everything. I thought I could hide my jealousy, but somehow I was not that good an actress I thought I was. So much for the professional, non-committal, more-or-less expressionless expression I thought I was trained well to put on. After all the years of trying not to give any visual cues to the patients and their parents (in much more ways than one), in the end, my heart and soul won. My emotions shone through my eyes like the beam used by Scotty to transport Spock or Capt. Kirk in Star Trek.
I was hit again today. By statements that were unfair, and not well-researched. Even the questions were quite unfair themselves. I admit I have not told those people the whole truth, but do I really need to?
Maybe I do....
Whatever it is,
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
(Kenangan Terindah - Samsons)
I'd been hit left, right and center. Yesterday was the start of everything. I thought I could hide my jealousy, but somehow I was not that good an actress I thought I was. So much for the professional, non-committal, more-or-less expressionless expression I thought I was trained well to put on. After all the years of trying not to give any visual cues to the patients and their parents (in much more ways than one), in the end, my heart and soul won. My emotions shone through my eyes like the beam used by Scotty to transport Spock or Capt. Kirk in Star Trek.
I was hit again today. By statements that were unfair, and not well-researched. Even the questions were quite unfair themselves. I admit I have not told those people the whole truth, but do I really need to?
Maybe I do....
Whatever it is,
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
(Kenangan Terindah - Samsons)
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