My Top Ten (Material) Wish List

1. The Complete Calvin and Hobbes collection
2. Dress made by Rizalman Ibrahim
3. A treadmill (hahahaha...)
4. An ice-cream maker
5. A self portrait
6. A pair of LV shoes
7. Satin pyjamas
8. Bosch fridge
9. A complete collection of Search songs
10. Roberto Carlos' Brasil jersey

Jiwang

Wise men say only fools rush in,
but I can't help falling in love with you....

Shall I stay? Would it be a sin
if I can't help falling in love with you?

Tiba-tiba rasa jiwang hari ni. Entah kenapa; sebab hujan kot. Tak pun sebab tadi pegi makan sorang-sorang kat Giant. Tak pun post-menstrual syndrome hahaha...Terasa kesepian la kononnya. Terus rasa rindu kat seseorang. Dan terpaksalah seseorang itu menerima SMS feeling-feeling rindu hahaha...pandai-pandai la dia; tak nak jawab pun takpe...Susah la rasa jiwang-jiwang ni...

Okey, kena sambung kerja. Tak boleh layan emosi lebih-lebih; tak pasal-pasal kena datang opis hari Ahad pulak nanti.

Hujan

It's started to rain again in Kuantan. It rained heavily yesterday and cats and dogs early this morning, and now, a downpour again.

I'm still to gaining the momentum to do work, after 2 weeks spent sitting and listening to people's rantings (and nodding off now and then). My desk is a mess. Even my pigeonhole is a mess! Thank God my life is not a mess (yet..)..

We're supposed to train for futsal today, but it's cancelled (yay!). Should I go for a walk again? Maybe I should, at least I'll have a good sleep from all the tiredness...

My right arm is aching, and my right hand doesn't feel right (no pun intended). A bit worried now, hopefully it's just carpal tunnel syndrome. Should remind myself to book an appointment with the orthopaedic specialist tomorrow...

Yeah, I AM procrastinating. Maybe I'll make that call to that person tonight...We'll see...

Jangan diucap selamat tinggal kepadaku...

...walaupun seketika
walaupun sekelip mata
simpan saja kata kata
ke akhir hayat yang ada...


I've been in KL for a week. Had to attend a course here for the whole of last week. Have to go for the second leg of the course again tomorrow and the day after.

So much has happened the past one week. So much that it has left me in hope, in fear and in confusion.

I'm still confused, so it's unfair for me to burden you with the tales now. I'll try to sort it as soon as possible. However, I'll leave you with one weighty question; a question whose answer I'm still searching hard for:

'Say you got to know someone 13 years ago, during your schooldays. And say that since leaving school, you have no contact whatsoever with this someone. Say this someone managed to get your phone number and called you. And during the second phone call that he made in 13 years, just a day after the first, he said that he liked you. He said that he liked you on those schooldays 13 years ago, and then lost you, and then found you again, and he's not going to lose you again. And he asked you whether or not you will accept him. What will your answer be?'

GBF ku...

GBF telepon lagi pagi tadi. Tepat masa aku baru nak mandi. Harus pegi opis lambat lagi pagi ni...

GBF memang macam tu - telepon waktu orang baru nak bangun tido, waktu orang nak bukak puasa, waktu orang baru tersedar yang orang tak sembahyang Maghrib lagi (sebab tengok ShinChan, diikuti dengan Doraemon)...

Aku kenal GBF tahun 1997 kot...tak pun 1998. Takde lah dah lama sangat. Kitorang mula rapat masa kitorang pegi Pulau Perhentian. Pegi dengan anak dekan dia pulak tu. Pernah korang merasa dekan hantar ke stesen bas? Siap babai-babai kat pintu bas lagi.

Sejak tu lah GBF jadi tempat mengadu. Dialah jadi Cik Sri Siantan. Dialah yang aku telepon pukul 3 pagi kalau tak boleh tido. Dialah jadi proxy penerima bunga dan Winnie the Pooh dari sorang 'spare boyfriend', sebab aku tak nak kantoi dengan boifren masa tu.

Sekarang GBF kat luar negeri, tak lama lagi nak balik. Tak sabar tunggu GBF balik hahaha...nak ajak lepak kat Mosin TTDI tengok abang-abang Satria GTi, nak ajak pegi Galeri Petronas sambil berangan jumpa Aleksandr Petrovsky, dan nak ajak tengok marathon Sex and the City (season 1-6 at one go, huh?). Nak tunjuk kat dia macamana rupa Khairy Jamaluddin (yummy aku cakap kat ko...), nak bawak dia piknik kat Putrajaya waktu malam sambil tengok jambatan dan lampu (kena ajak mamat kayu sekali ok..), dan nak tunjuk kat dia supermarket kat Malaysia ni takde la ketinggalan - thyme, rosemary, basil, rocket leaves sume ada tau. Jangan nak kekwat dengan aku...

OK-lah, nak balik. Rasa kemalasan yang amat sangat hari ni.